I think day 21 -and Phil F.

Phil F. was my first boyfriend. We met at the Gold Cup in a Sept at Devon. I was 13, he was 16. He had blond hair, chiseled facial structure, beautiful blue eyes and sexy as all hell!! And he was smart, sweet and so kind and he was a good christian boy, so he was very appropriate with me. Thinking back now, what the hell was my mom thinking?? HAHA -just kidding because if you knew me, it was perfect. All the girls were so jealous of him at school because he was that cute and he used to pick me up in a restored 67 light blue Chevy, AND he was super nice!! I really gave my whole 13 yr old heart to him -HAHA -but really I did. We dated for two years off and on and that's pretty serious for that age. I really thought I would be marrying him and live happily ever after.
Then something happened, then happened again that young hearts can't usually deal with and we broke up. I remember sitting in my room with my purple light on listening to The Thompson Twins, Hold Me now, crying my guts out to the point I thought I was going to throw up. Oh puppy love!! I remember saying to myself I will never give my heart to a man like that again!!
I really never have either. All from a decision I made when I was 16 years old. Kinda silly when you think of it yet we live like that's real. Another thing I'm done with now and that's guarding my heart. I'm gonna live and love like each day is my last!!
This cleanse has been very powerful!! I'm going through all of it! Today, the pull to have a chocolate chip muffin and a latte was powerful!! Comfort food, that unfortunately turns my stomach afterward.
Good news with mama, she has a severe bladder infection which make old people go fruity!!
I'm elated. First, to know that I will have my mama back soon and second, it's not easy taking care of your parents.
Life is FABU!!!