Sunday, April 18, 2010

Day 25! And the ex!

You know when you hear your ex is back in town or you know you will see them somewhere? Well today was one of those days.
We had met a few years ago and didn't get involved until last May. It was fun, wild and a true mess. The two of us together was just silly and more about convenience than anything.
We had ended things in January and it was all very copacetic. I hadn't given much thought to seeing him again. Until... I heard he was coming up and I got irritated, like this town ain't big enough for the two of us! HA! I felt like I was obligated to tell him what I had been up to in my life and frankly I didn't want to and I was pissy that I HAD to.
Now the funny thing is I was really wrapped up that somehow I was obligated and how dare he want to know this information and blaa blaa blaa. I have to say this poor guy never asked a thing from me either. I was making all of this up on my own and of course with my chosen girlfriend to bounce this off of.
All and all I used up about 2 hrs of time thinking about this over the course of the week. And when the time came to see him today, I had completely forgotten that he was going to be here plus I hadn't heard from him. I was also very, very, late and almost didn't show up...huh, interesting.
So as I'm walking through the field, I see him and my first reaction was funny and I said aloud, "oh shit!" and was surprised with this reaction. Then I stopped being 13 and strolled up to him and gave him a big hug and was happy to see him.

The rest of the day, I spent the time catching up with him and our friends. And it was all perfect. I didn't feel obligated and was free to share with him everything I was up to, even who I'm dating. It was the relationship I actually always wanted to have with him but at some point it took a left turn and I didn't direct it back.
It's just so funny how nutty I can get over boyz...still!! HAHA!

I'm still feeling amazing!! I am planing my next 30 days and what's next!
A few new things have been added and I will blog about those later!!!
Peace

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