This is it

Today was a trying day for me!! I woke up very tired and just couldn't catch up it seemed. My riding was a step behind with little moments of being present, but mostly felt like I was asleep up there. I had the sense to not push myself while in this state and did flat work. Then the day kept on going like days do and yet I was in a fog and not present. I wasn't upset or depressed about it which is a big change for me. Usually when things don't go my way or the days occurs out of control I tend to slip into the 'whats wrong with me' and wow, not once did that even come up today! Yippee! But it wasn't a spectacular day or a misfit day, it was a pleasant and quiet day.
I wasn't confronting anything that I could see, yet wanted to be alone with Luke. It would have been a great, 'In loving Silence' day.
Then the cravings hit! For fried fattening food. And I bought the kids Southern style ribs and cornbread and fried chicken!! They are gonna gain the weight I lose! Oi!
There has to be something there. I called my juicing peeps and friends and just vented and they just loved me up until it passed. There is still something around, 'it's not fair' that others can eat and not gain weight, whaaa, 'it's not fair that Suzy Q doesn't have to study and gets all A's'....whaaa, it could really go on and on with me!! HA! It's a conversation of a 6yr old who didn't get her way! And given that I was a spoiled brat most of my life, I got a lot of whaaaa's. LOL.
I didn't break my fast! YAY! My kids are happy and healthy and my life is great!!