Day 3 -Sat night!!

I made it through Jeanette's wonderful Birthday Party clean and sober. Now a days that means without food and wine, quite a shift from years past -HA!!
When I was driving there I was thinking about all of the great benefits of not drinking.
Then I walked in and smelled the beer, smelled the fried food and wanted to order a double shot of Crown chilled, a beer and a bucket of wings. I don't really like wings but in that moment I sure did.
I kept on walking up the stairs thru the funky dico dance floor to the private area for her party and I made it!!!
In the moment I felt like was walking through a war zone and wondered if I was going to make it through the night. And something just clicked and I decided to be present with my friends and to not let alcohol or food get in between us. And it was magical!! At one point as I was re living my perfection moment while talking to friends, I was so with them it was like we were in our own little bubble or pod and the rest of the noise was silent. It was a beautiful experience.
I drank water and danced my ass off. I allowed my sensuality to come out and play and it was fun, fun, fun. All of my senses, even though I wasn't eating the taste of the lemon in my water was divine, I touched my friends and gave them loving hugs and the smells of patchouli and garlic and yummy smells filled the air. And the DJ's music was loud and crisp and my body just moved to it.
Now with all of that being said, I ask myself over and over, why are you doing this? What is your long term goal?? Because as I make my kids pancakes and waffles and strudels and sweets and sugars oh my, I realize that we all need a huge over haul in health!!
This is good, cause like the old saying goes, 'the family that prays together, stays together' well for my family it will be, 'the family that nourishes itself, will live a happy and healthy life'.